Touching base......

So, I've been back at work for 3 days now, and boy have they been busy. It's like I've never been away. As quickly as you think you've finished something, another piece of work turns up. It's never ending, and very tiring! Still, it keeps me out of trouble!

I've only got one more day before my next scan, which I'm excited but VERY nervous about. I'm praying that all will be fabulous, and that with a bit of luck, we'll get to find out the baby's sex.

Anyway, my husband and I have been discussing our options regarding my son's education. I would prefer him to go to school, but my husband is very interested in home schooling him. I'm not too keen on this, but he has been doing a lot of research in to it and is growing more and more in favour of this. So, if possible, can you give me your opinion on this subject. I'd especially like to hear from parents who have home schooled or are considering home schooling. All opinions will be warmly welcomed!

Will update with details of the next scan etc.....

xxx

The potty antics continue.....

As I mentioned previously, we have been trying to potty train my son. Well, so far so good! He will use the potty all the time when he is at home, even when he has bottoms on, usually! He's even starting to do number 2's in the potty now...yippeee!!!

Now to the difficult bit, how do I get him to go outside without a nappy on, keep dry and tell me when he needs to go? I've been using training pants wherever possible, but he doesn't tell me that he needs to go, he just goes! Any suggestions are very welcome!

So, today we're going to the cemetary to tend to my daughters grave. It's nice to be able to visit and spend time with her, but at the same time, an awful experience that no one should have to go through. Nevertheless, this is something that we must do as her parents. We will never forget, nor neglect her.

I'm back to work on Monday after a restful week off. I can certainly say that I'm not looking forward to it! I've been getting used to pottering around, spending time with my husband and son and generally just chilling. Oh well, that's life eh?

xxx

Bubba says hello.....

My husband, son and I were just listening to the baby's hearbeat when I felt my first 'proper' kick!! I was so excited, I thought I'd share it with you!! We managed to capture the heartbeat and the kick, so here it is..........

The first kick is at 12 secs, the second (the one I felt!) is at 20 secs, and the third is at 44 secs.



By they way, I mentioned previously that my next scan was on the 26th. Well, I received a call from the hospital informing me that my consultant won't be in on that day, so they've moved my appointment to the 30th. I was a bit gutted because it means I have to wait an extra 4 days before we get to see bubba again. Oh well,will give you an update then.

xxx

Why?

I've been looking around lately at the experience of some other families who have been diagnosed with a hydrops baby like mine. Many have opted, as I did, to fight for their baby's life. Some, however, have chosen to abort their baby. I personally have a hard time understanding this, primarily because I belive all life is sacred, no matter what. I also feel that the healing process and coming to terms with the situation is made easier if the pregnancy comes to a natural conclusion. And besides, even though the doctors say there is no chance, doesn't always mean they are right. Just ask some of the baby's out there who have survived inspite of the odds they were given!!

In addition, I am confused by taking this decision when a family have been told that there is no chance of survival. Surely it is more humane to all concerned to allow the baby to die naturally, as opposed to the alternative, which I understand is incredibly traumatic to both mum AND baby?

Many may not agree with me, but that's how I feel. I can appreciate how hard it is to come to a decision like that, but I personally could never end a pregnancy, regardless of what the outcome may be. That's just me. I'm not judging, just voicing an opinion.

xx

Moving along nicely........

Last Friday I went and saw my consultant. She said that all is going very well and she is very pleased with our progress. We listened to the baby's heartbeat and she was very pleased! I told her that I have a doppler of my own, and she seemed supportive of this.

As promised, I've posted a couple of scan pictures taken at 14 weeks. As mentioned previously, I wasn't able to get any pictures at my last scan due to monster boy! I'll definitely try and get some at the next scan, which is due to take pleace on 26th of this month.

If you take a close look, especially at the first picture, you can see the baby has their hand on their face!! You can just make out the fingers!!

I'll check back in again after my next appointment with an update.

xx

Another peek at bubba....

So I had another scan today, and again, all is well. We managed to see quite alot today. Saw bubba having a good kick about and a bit of a drink! I think they even gave us a wave!! They even looked straight at us! We did ask if we could find the sex out, but no luck, although we did get what I think was a between the leg shot, so I've got a hunch, and it's just a hunch about the sex, but I'm, not revealing yet until we know for sure!! We'll try again at the next scan. So all in all, everything looks good so far.

I didn't manage to get a picture today as my monster son was causing mayhem in the scan room, and it was all I and my husband could do to get the scan done without the room being demolished!! Boys will be boys eh?!!!

I did manage to get a picture at the last scan a couple of weeks ago, so I'll try and post that one soon. I've got another scan in a couple of weeks time, so will try to get a picture then.

Other developments in my world include my gorgeous son starting to use the potty!! As long as we leave his bottoms off, he uses the potty no probs, but as soon as we put pants on, he pee's everywhere! So now we've got to teach him that pants are not nappies!!! I'm so proud of him getting this far in only a couple of days!! He'll get the hang of the rest soon, I'm sure!!

Anyway, will try and get that scan picture uploaded soon, and will update after the appointment on Friday.

The soothing sound of a tiny heart.....

I just bought a fetal doppler (Sonotrax A) so that we could listen to baby's heartbeat. We've managed to record this and so have decided to upload this here.

While I'm writing, I'd just like to say to anyone condsidering purchasing a doppler, this is by far one of the best purchases I have ever made, and would recommend buying one to anyone. As you know, I'm 14 weeks at present and have been able to hear the heartbeat perfectly, and I'm not a thin person!! This doppler is brilliant!

Anyway, here is the heartbeat.........


HAPPY NEW YEAR xxx